____________`;summer p a r a d i s e

Like a slave.
2005-05-20 - 8:49 p.m.

added new song! removed the old. hmm, so it's komaya, dbsk one. ^^; means little child. >_< you can just hear yunyun melodious voice. >///< and junjun's too. heh.

i had a inspiration yesterday. hmm, i collected all my papers yesterday, and i cried. ;_; art. really. sucks. i got a 32, is like a UUUUUU* is like crap, is going to pull my average like crazy, hmm, history expected it to fail, didnt really study. >_< and bio. ho hum... better buck up.

i skipped mc's phototaking, who cares. xD

[YW] I open my eyes to the sunlight that is streaming in through the windows.
My sadness is calmed from yesterday.
If I walked the path that you always told me about
I probably wouldn't have scarred my heart.

[Choikang] Everytime I was exhausted and cried for you
You always held me tight. baby U-know I love U

*[All] I know you were waiting for me
so I thank you for the love inside you
I'm always next to you...now I promise you

[Micky] Like a child, I couldn't even hide the deepest emotions of my heart from you.

[Xiah] If I looked lonely from behind,
you held my hands and cried for me.
Forgive all my childish behaviors of when I forgot about you
in my happy moments.

*Repeat

(narration)
[Micky] You were always inside of me,
but I never felt your presence.

[U-Know] Now give me a chance to live for you.
I will even love your pains.

[YW] Hold out your hands so that we could feel together...
Look into my eyes, and see that you're inside of me.

Thanks to translation. >_<
translation by: seohee (sbsk.net/forums)

then again. i really hate art. lsaglhgkasln. shit.

She was whipped again and again, it was her wrong doing, therefore the beating from her master. She was young, probably 14 to 15, yet slavery never escaped from her life. She is stuck to being a slave for the Kims. Every whipped she received splited her skin and flesh was seen, however, strangely enough, blood did not flow. It's just a red mark.

She couldnt scream when she was whacked, she knew it would only be harsher, if she did. She bit her lip harder as he raised his whip one more time, and it cracked. It was over, finally over, she weakly stood up from her knees and looked at her master, he grabbed her chain and smirked, "You know, I have been very kind to you already" With that he flung her against the wall. Tears dripping from her eyes. It's true that he have been very kind already, he didnt use other methods to punish her like, sexual abuse. It hurts. Slavery... is her life. Binded by fate, where is God?

She sat down against the wall, as she washed her wounds with tears, deep down she knew, someone would rescue her. Just a little more paitence, just a little more time, he would come, the one she longs for the most. Not a sin for lust, but just a simple wish of being freed. She prayed, and prayed. And went back to her daily chores, before round two of whipping hit her again.

Weak on her knees she fell, but she tried again, to no avail, her legs seems to be paralysed. She sobbed more, as she continued to push herself. But all she did was fall. Nothing more. On the ground she lay, she saw an illusion of going back home. A home she longed for, a home of love. She reached her hands out, angels surround her in the aura of lights shone from this illusion, she was going home... she was... she did.

I bet no one goes though these this day. oh well, just an inspiration of writing, no offence to anyone by the surname of kims. ^^|| Junsu & Hero. oops. xD

hmm, i met a few conclusion while writing this,

our stress/problems are like wounds in the slaves.
the harder we push ourselves to it, the harder the "whacking" gets. It hurts yeah?
the master depicts our problem-maker. whoever it is, you just hate it, yet you cant.

i feel like that slave. as in the deeper meaning of it. urm... yeah, just an inspiration to write.

i feel wounded, but like the saying goes time heals everything, and i think i dont have the time to heal. then again, who knows?

--added new fanlistings, trax, kpop.--

elope || now